Always fearful.

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Chores.  I can't remember when last I did them.  Real or not, I imagine it has been weeks since I fed and watered the rabbits.  That they will be dead when I get to them.  With sleep being several times a day, my internal day counter gets off.  I doubt, in this recent heat, and the quick uptick in temps, that they would last more than a few days.  But, to me, it seems like it has been a week since I tended them.  I have been afraid, for the last month, about finding them all dead when I go to check on them.

Now, they are getting to an age when they could die at any time.  No longer fertile.  Just living out their time.  So, if I start finding them dead, one or two at a time, it won't be a surprise.  It's only if several are dead, or most, or for sure all.  But, no.  They are doing fine.  They don't even drink all that much.  And eat too.  Their needs are small.  Daily isn't required.  Every other, or even every third day, is enough.  If... I prefer to check on them more often.  It just hasn't been possible lately.

Mosquitos are out!  Wouch.  I got twenty bites in the time it took to feed and water them.  I'll have to find my mosquito repellent.  Wouch!  Ouch!  *scratching and itching*  Then again, this is the first time I have seen mosquitos this year.  And, usually, they would be out in March, possibly April?  May for sure.  Here it is, June 18th, and just getting them?  Crazy, but... okay.

It is down to 66.  Not that that is all that cool, but it sure beats 78 which it was last night at this time.  Insulin, slow and fast, and a fatted coffee.  With days and nights messed, but more doubling... two of each per day, medicines are a bit... wonky.  While it seems I missed Friday, in truth, it seems it is just... the later Saturday that I would have missed, IF I hadn't awaken.  Since I am awake?  I am taking Friday's missed medicine, having taken "Saturday's" medicine earlier.  Okay, so I... wasn't off, just... off.  Garhrhrhrh!  But, yes.  If I can stay awake a few more hours, I can take Friday and Saturday medicine.  I just got confused as to which day was what, starting Thursday?  Well... I... am doing better than I understood.

Not sure what to do.  Can't get going, can't sleep, y.t. is dead, can't focus on shows, the internet, these days, rolls up at about 17:00, on weekdays... completely dying on weekends and more so on long weekends.  Oh well.  I'll... sit, tinker.  If I can make it to midnight, I'll take the last of the medicine and go on to bed.  Later.