Nearing bedtime.

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Well, who can ever tell.  This close yet that far, with no certainty.

Blood sugar is still very good, strangely.  Last I checked, it was 114.  So... I had another fatted coffee and some more turkey meat sticks.  That will be it, save water.  I can't quite figure out why some days, having just two fatted coffees, sum total, and blood sugar goes up.  Some days, like today, blood sugar is staying absolutely level.

I checked the package.  It was taken to the local ups location, and is said to be on it's way out currently, but from there.  Okay.  Still, odd that it would claim to be out, while in transit.  Another package arrived in SLC a bit before it, but was not expedited.  No... worries.  One package was supposed to be here today, one tomorrow.  Just, that, if one would make it, odd that both didn't.  Perhaps there are varying levels of priority?  While I do get packages late (rare for ups), I do get them early, too.  So... don't know.  

Though, it seems, lately, getting them early doesn't happen as often.  It's as if that is now frowned upon.  Thought... something strange is going on in the systems.  Not sure what, but... can tell.  Fuel costs, fewer buyers, lots of things are in the works, changing.  I honestly don't know how much longer things will hold up.  More the aftereffects of running so hot, for so long.  Though, if consumption has truly collapsed?  And with diesel and gasoline prices?  Yeah.  We will see.  

Though, to be honest, if amazon fails?  Your local grocery, hardware, and else will fail harder.  This could get ugly in ways no American has even imagined in their lifetime.  And globally?  Cannibalism.  For those not prepared.  Being vegan isn't preparation, merely making yourself an easier target.  They go after the slower ones, or catch them first.  

I'm serious.  This could get ugly in ways you would never want to see.  You?  How much food do you have, exactly?  And, what would you do for food, if your usual sources stopped being available?  How long would it take you?  Have you... ever starved?  I have.  I know.  I know how to deal with starvation.  Do you?  I promise you, if you have never starved before?  (Not eating for reasons out of your control = starvation, over a period of several weeks, though without certainty of when that will end)  You... will change.  It is like being held underwater.  Initially, you might struggle a bit.  But, if you begin to panic, you may well kill for air... or food.  Trust me.  Especially if this is your first rodeo.  And, once you begin killing, you... will live to kill.  Can't change that.  Thankfully, I... learned control.  More by accident, incident.  Well, and that I had food available, just no means of cooking it.  So, it... was a bit different.

I am just hoping, when this cleans up, those who created this mess... for a false pandemic, to the vaxxes, to the food shortages, are rounded up, tried, and hung.  We will see.  Perhaps there is some sort of fix, quicker than most think.  But... I don't think so.  Just fuel prices, but that adds to food prices, has to.  Plus businesses going down, first the small locals, now the bigs and probably government.  And that all is assuming there isn't a nuclear exchange... which I don't.

Panic?  Too late, too little, wouldn't help.  Just... get ready, if you can.  The worst that could happen is... nothing.  And, you would have food for a bit, until food prices stabilize.  Might get killed for it, but... perhaps... even then?  Maybe your food would keep someone from killing even more people.

Thoughts for the day, I guess.  Later.