Had to get out.

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Not far, or long.  Packages in, at the post office.  I knew about one.  Expected some others.  It looks like they arrived several days ago, but it just reported it to me.  So... I best get to it.  No, I did get to it.  Items which make ironing easier.  Hams.  Sewing hams.  But, ones supposed to be filled with wood chips, hard wood chips, not fabric.  It makes a difference.  Are they what were advertised?  I'll find out soon enough.

Now, the source for these is from Australia?  Or New Zealand, or such.  Still, I thought buying them from amazon?  Nope.  They... traveled all the way from England.  The two items only cost $6.50 for shipping?  Between their "mail deliver", whatever that is, and ours?  Hmm.  Okay.

I didn't want to go out.  It's not even all that cold.  It looks like it is 31, or was.  But was still in the thawing stages.  It hasn't gotten to freezing, or hadn't.  But it wasn't the cold.  I am simply absolutely exhausted.  I don't want to stand.  I don't want to eat.  I don't want to do anything.  I mean, I do... I really do.  But the energy it takes to just stand is incredible.

Life hurts just to live.  So, getting dressed, going out and starting the auto, driving it.  Then getting out and picking up the mail.  And... else?  But I did it.

I've been gaming.  I... gamed, hoping that would help me get going.  It may or may not have.  I can't be sure.  But, between this and that, I did get out.

I'd like to go on back to bed.  But I think I'll have a coffee first.  Maybe game a bit more, or look some things up.  Some things just aren't seeming to work on the game.  "Gardening", or well... to get water to the area in order to garden.  There are pipes and such.  I wonder if the older version requires a pump.  Perhaps.  But I haven't found one, nor do the allowed 'cheats' offer it as an item.  Yes... I... figure out how to get things done outside of typical ways, if there is a way.  In this particular game, the cheats are built in, currently.

Part of the problem with this game is, it is eight years old.  And, every year or two years they have added large volumes of content.  Which means catching up is brutal.  I stopped playing the other game for similar reasons.  After I... mostly... figured everything out.  Well, and they stopped offering challenge games.  I thought those were weekly, or such.  It turns out they runs those when they want to.  And, maybe for whom they choose.  I may look that up.  But I want to get these last few aspects sorted, then go over?  We'll see.

Dreamed... last night.  My paranoia got me into some sort of a fuss, while I was sleeping?  Well, I had a fight with my phone, and various companies.  But, that happened when I... the me who is awake and aware (most of the time) was sleeping.  My other part... had issues.  In the dream, I woke up, and had to sort some things out.  Got it done, but... yeah.

Oh, I've had to mess with such things before, in real life.  Usually I am more aware, but not always.  Especially back when I used to drink.  Ugh.  PTSD is some shit, I'm telling you.  It... just... does strange things.  And I'm not always aware.  Sometimes I become aware.  I have to wonder... how much I will never know.  That's some heavy mojo.  It just... it is.

Well... on to gaming, coffee, perhaps some electrolyte water.  Later.  Or goodnight.