Still awake.

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Five minutes until noon thirty?  Yep.  Tried to stay up to make a call.  No call, can't.  Voice won't work.  But, perhaps, some day this week yet.  If I can keep pushing until later.  It... won't be made, later, the call.  But, if I push how late I am awake, there is a chance that at an earlier time, I might be able to call.  Hell of a rigged life I lead, but it's what I've got.  And... it works, after a fashion.

My left eyeball is bugging me.  Not sure... if I am rubbing it because it is scratched, or if I scratched it while rubbing it.  But... I finally gave it a good rinse, then decided not to touch it or else.  As that simply was not helping.  I'm not seeing anything in it.  Though an eyelash could be stuck in there?  Hard to know.  But... no... no more rubbing or else.  I'll just have to suffer it.

Blood sugar is 112.  Better, but still... annoying.  No food today, probably not tomorrow.  Maybe not the day after.  Just... because.  I don't need it.  No nausea, thankfully, mostly.  It's still been dogging my trail for a bit, but lightly.  Not enough to put me off feed.  No, that is just because I don't want to cook, not even the easy soup thing.  And... I want a break from food.

Never thought I'd get tired of eating, food in general.  But, yeah.   Losing weight has become silly easy.  When I decided what to eat, then went through the hell it takes to get to eating just what I suggested.  I haven't even been close to perfect.  But, not... too awfully terribly off either.  Just... once a week or month, I go off to way off.  And I don't worry about it.  Especially if I haven't eaten in too long, and sort of need to get something in.  Pizza ain't perfect, but if it can get me to eat again, okay.

Steaks?  Well, I have chops and burger thawing/thawed.  I'll hope those are good in a few days.  If not, then I'll pull some steaks.  I'm not as afraid to eat steaks, now that I don't have the expense of "other" foods.  No ketchup, no pickles, no salad, no fruit, no potatoes or turnips or anything!  And, I only eat an half a pound to pound a day.  So, in that way?  Steak is pretty cheap.  Especially when only eaten three days a week, say.  When you are buying all the rest, yes, a steak dinner really adds up.  But those veggies are beginning to come in at, pound for pound, the same price.  Or more.

It's also odd that eating more (as in variety) also leads to eating more, a lot more, triple more and then some, in volume.  When I was eating veggies, I would never eat less than a pound for a steak.  Often two, plus a potato (or two), some green orange or such side, and a salad.  I would eat two to three pounds of sides, and the steak.  And still be... sense... hunger.  Now, half a steak often absolutely stuffs me.  Or two or three four ounce burgers.  Crazy.

Gaming... is what I was doing.  The new game is worth it.  There were a lot of problems playing on things other than personal computers.  They have, mostly, fixed those things.  The graphics are much better, as well.  No cheats, but mods... even for ps5's.  Free, so far.  They are supposed to be selling access to "better ones" sooner or later.  Never can be sure.  Not sure I would buy them though.  

Oh, it's time to sleep.  It's just... a matter... of getting done, and then going up.  I... I'll try.  Goodnight.