Finally.

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I found another pot, for cooking burger.  But?  But the burger was already bad.  So no dinner.  Strangely?  Or not?  It... didn't bother me at all.  I'll just put some burger out, when I can clear the freezertop, and let it thaw.  I have ground turkey I will be using with it.  Just to use it up.  It's... all meat.

Still, I got the other pans mostly clean.  And set out.  Then took a shower  Oh... it's... been a while.  Delicious!  Trimmed my whiskers first.  Not a full shave, but as good as the clippers can do.  And, after, brushed my teeth again, doing the whole process.  Still rough.  It's been days, weeks, a month?  It's been a while since I have been able to take any care.

Surprised how... little mess there really often is.  It's not as bad as I would have thought?  Yes, I think.  I am sure it isn't the healthiest.  But it... seems to be just fine, mostly.  Though, too, it has to do with what I eat... generally consume.  Without sugars, and low on carbs, and really low on everything from calories to the rest?  Yea, it... makes a difference.

As I suggested, I think I am having poisons come out from within that fat.  Less so than initially.  But it's still toxic in there.  But both less from the older fat, and becoming used to it, I am improving a lot.  Mostly.

Boy though, we sure get ugly as we get old.  Looking in the mirror for the first time in... a while?  Ugh.  Though some of it is losing the weight.  I don't look like... the me I am used to looking at.  The mug has changed.  The shoulders, chest, belly.  It's... all... changing.  Ugly, old, and getting skinny, but in that terribly ugly stage between really fat and normal?

I am not working out, or trying to do much, until weight comes off better.  More of it.  Then I will... give it a go again.  Right now I would just be humping the extra twenty to forty pounds, even now.  I'm just too old for that.  I'll... see when I get to 220?  Or so.  We'll... see.  To be honest, I have no idea what weight I should be with my frame and height and such at this point in life.  I'm afraid it will be clean to 200?  I... will find out in the next few months.  Or years.  I've lost... between forty and forty five, for certain.  Assuming I hadn't gone back on up to 300, which I might have done for a bit.  And, in two months?  Three?  Two...  With Thanksgiving and some other things in there.

Well... I'm going to have another coffee, then get on to bed.  Set the alarm, to try to be up in time.  Oh, best send a few texts.  Let people know I know, and... have plans.  And let my friend know what I need this week, from the dairy.  Two creams and a sour cream, I do believe.  Need to get to the bank, pull some money, for to pay.  I'm ahead, well, this month.  So... it's okay.  Still, I like to get money available, just... to... keep ahead.

Yes, coffee.  Then on to bed.  Goodnight.