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And other things.  Oh, wow.  Not sure why life just took a hard left turn.  Shoulders ache, torso feels terrible.  Plus, so very tired.  I just got to coffee, but it doesn't matter.  I may even have diarrhea.  I'm... going to sort that out before going upstairs.  But, yes.  I think after a bit of...

A quick run, just in case.  Nope.  Just gas, with softserve.  It might be coffee.  Haven't had any in a while.  Well, yesterday.  But a few days before restarting.  There are good things about intermittent coffee consumption, and potentially bad things.

Anyway.  I can't believe I am feeling so bad again.  These things, slight feverishness, no nausea, but everything else.  Achy, tired, true exhaustion really, confusion, slight headache, lots of muscle aches, bones hurt, ribs.

Sassy keeps bumping my sore spot, on the leg.  That's not helping.  Headbutting the wound.  She knows exactly where it is.  I'm not sure if she is being evil, or being good... in her mind.  I've been feeding her, so... she isn't doing it for food, or attention.  I have been taking really good care of her.  Not... sure.  Maybe that is what cats do, to keep from... hiding wounds and not healing.  I'm just not sure.

The thing is, mostly, usually, I trust Sassy.  To do the right thing, to be kind, or right.  I just... that's the only reason she doesn't... get in a bit of trouble.  But I have let her know not to do that.  I just haven't smacked her, yet.

I'm going to look around a bit, finish the coffee, then sleep.  Oh... take some painpills.  I can't believe how much I hurt, how many ways I hurt, or understand why.  Still, it's... a blessing.  Believe or not.  Just, sometimes, I... don't want the blessing.  It is what and as it is.  Amen.