Up.

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I was expecting a bit of a rough start.  I went in and down so hard, being up so very late.  My body was a knot of ache and soreness.  It was wonderful, but terribly so.

I'm waking just a bit tight, but really, pretty good.  I'll get medicine in, first thing.  Blood sugar is 114 fasting?  Meh.  I'm making burger soup later.  It's been two, or three, days since I ate.  I'm not starving.  I've got enough fat to feed a small army, even a small army of me's... for a while.

Now, as the fat is coming out?  I would guess my past is... coming out with it.  When that fat was stored, I drank beer, lots of it.  I also consumed soda by the six-pack, a day?  Close, if not.  I used tobacco, too.  All that stuff gets stuffed in that fat, or parts of it.  Whatever the body can't process, handle, doesn't know what to do with?  In with the fat.  That is why I am so sick, I think.

Had I been in a healthy lifestyle, other than the carbs?  I think this process would be much easier.  Who knows what else went in there.  Thankfully I wasn't a certain type of drug user.  My guess is that stuff loads into fats (of those types who can get fat).  That would be miserable.  Though, some of that might act as pain relief when coming out?  Or recreate cravings for habits lost?  I... just can't speak to that.

Oh, but yeah.  Lots of bad stuff in the fat I am now rendering.  That, I have decided, is the problem.  I ought to see if there is anything which might alleviate that problem.  Something to help the liver, kidneys, process what is being uncovered.  Though... probably... I am through the worst of it.  While, the last time I was at this weight, I used tobacco, I wasn't a heavy drinker (in the Navy), and didn't drink much soda (until my mid to late 40s).

Although, while at that weight, last time, I had a lot more muscle mass.  So, a lot of the remaining fat has been more recently developed?  Could be.  Still, I would guess I am to the earlier fat productions?  Does it come off in layers, as it went on?  Or is it... just random.  Whatever is easiest to acquire, obtain, access?  I just don't know.  I could look up studies, but studies, even medical, have proven to be mostly false these days.  They are selling "sage words" to whoever is buying, so as to push for snake oil "cures and tonics".  Banking on fake and gay, it's what empires do.  That and fight wars they can't win, selling weapons that don't work well and can't help, to both sides.

Hmm, coffee?  Ah, but first, to weigh in... 244.4?  Okay.  I had hoped for more weight loss, but I have been sleeping so much, and barely sitting other than that.  I suppose I should be happy with even that.  I am getting anxious to break the 230's, but especially to get into the 220's.  That is when I can sort of get a feeling for... where I am in the world of weight and goals and such.  

Yes, I'll get there.  Now?  I'm... not sure I have a choice.  Once you find the path, leaving it is more of a trick than I would have imagined.  Which is a loverly thing, if so very strange.  The path to Nirvana isn't to be abandoned lightly, less so the light that guides.  Amen.

Well... back to... attempting to make a day.  A shower, before long.  After waking, and some gaming.  Good... morning, day, and night I suppose.  Goodnight to some of you normal yahoos.  Sweet dreams.  I'll... keep a watch on the world for you.