An early arrival.

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I ordered a desk to go with the new chair.  High, like a drafting table or work bench.  I honestly wasn't sure what it was, at first.  Perhaps they sent the wrong thing.  I thought it was longer and not quite so wide.  It's a bit of a beast to put together.  Not due to complexity.  It just weighs a bunch.  I have it together, save for the back brace, which I am hoping will stabilize the thing.  I best check, actually, whether the brace is for the back or as a foot-step sort of brace.  It could go either place.  No instructions.  Finally, though, a desk I am hoping I can rely upon, one that is big enough so that I don't have to tuck in to tuck in.  You have no idea what it is like to live in a world that is made for... people... while you aren't a people.

I will probably get more into dishes and laundry.  Probably.  It is slowly creeping up in temp, and that slowly tears me down.  I'm just not a heat lover.  Beside the environment warming, every thing I do adds to my heat issues.

It's just about time for a blood sugar check.  Then maybe a shower.  That last might just help cool down.  I won't be eating for another six hours and change.  At 21:00 tonight it will be a 36 hour fast... save for tea... or to the best of my recall.  I won't go beyond that quite yet.  A cup and an half of brown rice, two or three teaspoons of butter, and a pinch of salt.  Yeah, carbs.  Better carbs, good fat, but more because the calories are easy to count.  As I start things, this is the way.  Though I should begin looking at calories for chops, etc... sort of by weight.

No... no true calorie counting.  I will just use that on the days I do a light fast.  The rest of the time I will simply eat as I usually eat... if maybe keeping consumption into a smaller space of time... if that isn't too unusual as is.  There are limits, in any venture.  For now, this is one, and as good as I can do.

As to hunger?  It has mostly passed.  Tease me with a snickers bar and it might get ugly.  Could end up without that grin, candy bar, and maybe missing other parts.  But, honestly, it really isn't bad.  A bit more of a headache, though that might be from the heat, from the exercise in putting the desk together, or from fasting.  I'll cook the rice in time that it will be done by 21:00, easily... but still warm.  Reheating rice doesn't work all that well, and cold rice does not absorb butter.  Nasty clumps when cold.  I am hoping, before I eat, that the serum drops to somewhere around 200~250... if the former is probably impossible at this early stage.  The latter number might even be a stretch.  It is hoped, in time, that my tolerance, which is the problem, will correct.  If so, that number, over consecutive fasts, with a bit of care to carbs and type of carbs, and all else, will lend a hand where it can't fix it by itself.

I am nervous.  I feel the weakness in arms and legs, from just a bit of work.  Though I am coming back to work, which might be the true problem.  Always nervous when seeing what this old boat might do.  Then again, what is the worst that could happen?  Okay, yeah, there are any number of worse than death scenarios.  Still... here I go.  The blood sugar reading was 266.  Down from 296 last night and 326 this morning.

Later.