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A full pill extra of the water pill, extra time down, more time on my butt not doing anything, an attempt at less fluid...  Maybe.  The less swollen foot looks normal, the worse one both the food and above that to the calf muscle, are looking better.  The better one is almost looking normal.  The worse one is looking better than the better one looked yesterday and for... some time before that.  The skin on the bad leg part is still very sore.  Too many days swollen.  Who knows if it can repair.  So swollen, like a watermelon, I thought it would surely burst.  So, yeah, I had some hard feelings.  I've never seen it like that, treated or untreated.  I take it personal if I think I'm being attacked, and had reasons both in real life and the digital world.  Someone had gone back and found this, and was watching in several times ever few days for weeks.  With what was going on here and there out there, I took a hint.  Was keeping my pistol, for sure, with me wherever and everywhere.  I can take a hint.  So... yeah.


Well, looks like it didn't work.  Barely.  Might have just been a coincidence, like all those things in the towns and about.  Maybe.  I don't play the odds, in any case, I play my gut... even beyond the impossible.  If that was a hit, it wasn't the first.  Why begin posting?  I am back up to, if a meager, physical self defense capability and will work on the rest.

Why the bother though.  If I had... gotten to her?  If she had decided to come my way?  You would have known.  As I wrote in my secret blogs, and will write here, I have heard from families of past flames, mutual and singular friends, and a few others... the latter I think in an attempt to guilt-trip me, that when I get in, she goes bonkers.  Of course, women often lie, but family is good at tracking trouble down.  Sometimes.  I've gotten into a lot of blood, even some that I wouldn't touch... tried to keep them clean, or right.  Some of them are still stuck.  You would have known, and I don't think you did.  I didn't see a sign anyway.  Just a muse.

Then again, it might be political.  Some Americans are more pro-EU than they are pro-US.  Which tells you a lot.  There are many who are more socialist than anything else.  Many men and most women  want equality to be handed out, as a right, but don't see the problem with that.  They want everyone to be fed, housed, etc.  Not realizing, further, anything given can be taken.  That once they have no true rights, they are owned, which is exactly what they say they don't want to be, as some sort of feminists.  As always, look at what they propose and would do, not what they say.  Chattel can't be free unless it IS free.  Most of these are not.  Hatred?  Oh, I see that daily.  The truth might set you free... assuming you pursue it... but it may well get you murdered.  Many in the gulags and concentration camps of the world present and past got there not by breaking a law, but by hurting someones feelings.  North Korea is one big safe space... as are many others.  And they still aren't happy.

Still in horrible shape.  Lungs hit bottom while breathing, fire-leather leg skin, the weather heat is going to make further healing difficult, but... I've had a few worse than this.  There is nothing like being straightjacketed in pain or sickness, tortured, or even floating dead but conscious.  A few worse indeed.  Well, back at it.  Probably won't be writing as much.  Some, just... depends on how quickly I heal.