I wanted so to go to bed.

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But I really wanted something to eat.  Then I remembered.  I have eggs!  And, a carnivore recipe, for custard.  Really simple, if it took longer than... a simple scrample or such.  But... is much easier sounding, on the weak stomach I have.  So... I... got it all together, set up, in, and finished.

Then I ate.  I did make two types.  One just as plain as Jane.  One with a keto sweetener, vanilla extract, and cinnamon.  I could barely get the plain one down.  But the fancier one went down like a dream.  I made four containers of the stuff.  Two remain, for later.  I'll see if I like the plain one better, then.  If not, I may melt cheddar for on top?

I ate them luke-warm.  Having let them cool before eating.  But, yes.  I finally got something to eat, that I can eat.  Ugh.

I also got Sassy fresh water, have been feeding her well, and cleared and cleaned her litter boxes.  Those... were in need.  But... all good.  She still wants more, food, for make-up.  But I just won't.  Not too much, too fast.  Bust a gut.

On to bed, or just about.  Brush my teeth first.  Then, yes.  Right on to bed.  No medicine.  I've been eating far too little.  I don't think medicine works well when I'm not eating.  It... does too much.  And, sure, I ate two custards.  But, that is... a quarter of a normal meal, and it has been days since I otherwise ate.  So... yeah.  I'm pulling meds until I start eating much more regularly.

The next time I wake, I plan on clearing and cleaning the freezertop.  Both in order to pull more meat, and to do dishes hopefully today.  Not too far behind.  Hard to get behind when... you aren't eating.  Still, a bit.  And more, from... way back.  But that's... a differen trick pony.  Soon, on those.  Ugh.

Steak should be easier to eat.  And one might last me three days.  So I don't need all that much.  Will cook it in duck fat, this time.  Good stuff.  Doesn't take much.  After I finish this most recent try of a brand of butter, I won't ever buy it again.  I suspect they tainted it with oil.  Some generics can be trusted, most probably can't be.  Then again, you can't trust big brands, or high dollar brands.  You have some chance at trusting local, some... that's it.

I might even try to turn this into ghee... though I fear that would just ruin the ghee.  I've paid good money for ghee, only to realize there was liquid on top.  Ghee... doesn't do that.  It stays mostly solid, in a single mass, even at pretty warm temps.  Which is why it doesn't go rancid.  My guess is this stuff would do what most commercial ghee does... "water" at the top.  Bad stuff.

Just a few bites, if not exactly a feast, actually has me stuffed.  I want to eat more, can't.  Still, it's... nice to be stuffed.  And to have something, anything, on my stomach.  But it really is bedtime.  I've pushed it pretty hard.  Goodnight.