A bit more raw than anticipated.

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Still, was hungry.  And, it was mostly tasty.  I could only eat half of it.  The rest will be wrapped, to be heated and eaten later.  But, yes, that was... rather... rare.  I am very curious what blood sugar will be when I test.  I'm waiting for two hours.  Then will check.  As well, taking evening medicine now, I'll check bp again then as well.

Sure hoping food will help.  Definitely on the weaker side of life.  Stumbling around as if a newborn colt.  I haven't fallen down yet, but almost as much from luck as caution.  Every time I get up to do something, I internally sigh with relief when I finally am able to be seated again.  I am fighting gravity with little energy and less stability.

Though today I have been fighting through bravely.  Pushing through a bit.  Three larger efforts, with plans for more.  If I really am hoping that bit of beef will help.  The protein alone should help.  Even if my body inefficiently turns that into carbs.  If I can, later, I may heat the remnants back up and finish it.  Couldn't eat more this time.

Oh, but it didn't taste rancid.  So... yes, even on the thicker steaks, this method works.  But, next time?  I need to find my instant read thermometer.  Yeah.  I like it not only more done, but well warmed... at least while being taken off to rest.

I did have coffee earlier, but wasn't able to drink me.  Down to a cup, and it's just... too much.  My system is really twisting.

Ah, but I did call the V.A.  I got a blood test set up, for walk-in, on the day of the appointment.  So, there is that.  I'd like to be up really early, so that they could get the blood test run and he have the results.  But that just isn't... practical.  I can't sit around for four to six hours.  I just can't.  I'm hoping to be up there an hour or two early, but that is as good as I can do.

I am curious about the blood tests.  Blood sugar was nearing normal, just staying that... step above.  But, this week, it has come so far down.  If it doesn't show a decline in the A1C, it will next time.  But, it might.  My A1C, regardless of what they say, follows more closely with my blood sugar than it is supposed to.  It is supposed to be a picture of a three month average.  But that isn't what I have seen.  I know what their numbers are, and what my blood sugar has been reading.  They track, but more recent, not longer term.  If so, I might see an A1C of around 4.5 to 5.2?  Maybe.

As to other things, I am curious about potassium.  If things keep going as they are, I may be able to quit the water pill.  Which would also mean I could quite the potassium?  Just... want to keep an eye on that, and some other things.  My cholesterol, and other such, levels are probably going to be high.  But, as I eat less, even if I eat only meat?  I think that will sort itself out.  They keep trying to get me to take statins (is it)?  No.  NO!  Your brain is the most abundant, and easy to remove cholesterol organ.  You just wait.  When they admit that statins (or whatever) causes brain damage, kills off connections, and else?  There is no way to fix that, once done.  NO!

I do wonder how much doctors know.  As to bad side effects.  There has to be some belief, in the field.  Or total psychosis.  Perhaps a bit of both?  If you are getting rich, do you... care as much?  Dunno.  But I do wonder how many of them simply don't even question... pretty much anything... and how many of them absolutely know they are destroying people.  And... don't mind so long as their account is full?  I... know I don't trust them.  I attempt to use them for my benefit, not theirs or their, essentially, masters... be those political or economic.  Trust is earned.  They burned it, for me, long before covid.  That just brought it all out into the open.

Ugh.  Anyway... a bit of a break.  Then I'll test.  And, perhaps, get to a shower, dishes, laundry, whatnot.  Ugh.  Post office too?  Double, triple, ugh!  Later.