Another late... early... waking.

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Why?  I didn't bother with bp.  I... just know that is just fine.  However, I was curious about blood sugar.  I was... sure that must have gone up.  It always does that.  Teases me with a lower number, once, twice?  Then, for no reason just explodes higher.  Or... no reason I could fathom.

I did have to go to the bathroom, there was that.  But I didn't want to use the pee jug?  I think I could have made it through the night without going, but since I was up, as with yesterday night, I just went.  It isn't what woke me up, just something I became aware of once I was awake and down here.  I think I could improve that by not drinking three hours before bedtime.  Will improve.  Though, as mentioned, it isn't what woke me, nor the reason I then fully got out of bed.  Even so, I'd like to reduce even that.  Then again?  Any time I get out of bed, after having slept even for some hours, going to the bathroom may just... happen?  I'm not used to "normalcy", just sorting out what that might mean for me.

A minor ache in the right side of my neck.  Every had the back of your neck hurt, which causes a headache?  Imagine that is on the right side of your throat, transferred there for some odd reason.  It doesn't go up, to cause a headache, but it's like that sort of ache.  And, for most of this week, that ache has been on the whole of the neck... back and both sides.  A few painkillers... because.  Yes, I have been just about eating those this last week.  And, it has been a temporary allowance.  As well, it is becoming less needed through time.  Taking fewer of them, less frequently.  But, when something really hurts?  I'll take the damn pills.  Amen.

Oh, blood sugar.  I dreaded taking it.  Warm?  A bit.  I think that is what woke me yesterday night, and tonight.  Hot.  A mild fever.  Less tonight than yesterday night, but... the same.  So, I was expecting it to be a blood sugar spike.  Maybe it finally got to the steak, and turned it into carbs?

Hmm... not... at all bad.  At 101, and I could say fasting if I won't, it is very good.  That is my best reading so far... ever?  I think so.  As well, my week/day average is 150.  And the two week average is 158.  And I don't have a full month of readings for that, yet.  I've only been doing this for a week?  Two?  Somewhere in there.  A good trend, super numbers, and... nice.  So, it isn't blood sugar that woke me.  Just... remaining keto flu?  Must be.

And, I'm not hungry.  I'll probably have the rest of that steak sometime tomorrow.  Maybe form burgers for the week, and have some burger to fry into crumble.  Chops?  They are very thin, probably have a few, with a beef patty, as a meal.  And... just one meal a day.  No nausea returned.  And, while hunger has started to show, from time to time, it isn't ravenous, as a wolf on the heels... more of a friend pup, coming by to say hello, seek slight attention.

Hoping to get back to bed before too long.  Maybe within the hour?  I can hope.  If that kink, in the neck, would ease... that would help.  And, as I cool, in the night, that will help too.  Still, so pleasing to see blood sugar becoming... natural.  Do you realize how odd it is that I have simply survived such high blood sugars?  And high blood pressure?  Decades.  Organs should be beyond repair, if viral infections damaged them to start the cascade.  Still, if they had medicated, and I had learned to eat correctly?  But what ifs are... as lame as should have, could have, beens.

But, here I am.  Trying, yet, nearing forty years after what kills most people in four to six years.  If I can even reduce the suffering, there will be that.  And, that I have come to know God, for my part?  It is worth it, even if I have thirty more years, and pain the whole way.  Lucky... isn't... what it seems.  Had I become an atheist billionaire, I would be considered lucky, but I would know better.  Amen.