Up, right at three.

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I woke just before, at about 2:56.  In time to turn the alarm off, before it sounded.  Then, got out and started dressing right at three.  Pretty quick, this morning.  Just some fuss about what to wear.  Some of my pants aren't all that warm, so I have started wearing leggings with them.  Depends on what I want to wear that day.

Leggings, socks over those, shoes these days, pants, a long sleeve tshirt, a fleece jacket, a neck gator, and a cap.  If I am still feeling cool, I'll throw a heavy hooded jacket over all that.  Usually I don't need it, even when the front room is cooler.  At 65, starting this morning, it's almost warm with what I am wearing.

Blood sugar is 156 fasting.  Not great?  But not 180, 200, 325.  Perhaps the body just... does conniptions while adjusting.  It is well know that the body can turn protein, and even fat, into carbs.  Until it is fully fat adjusted, it may just do that, from time to time.  Creating insulin to keep it where it was, has been for... a very long time.

While I had cut all but the sweetener, apparently that was enough.  Now, being that it had no real carbs in it, it didn't keep blood sugar as elevated as it has, would with real carb sweeteners.  But, enough to keep me out of the lower blood sugar carnivore, or even keto, should have produced.  I just... couldn't give it up.  Having problems doing so even now.  That crap is addictive.  I am an addict.

Now, the sweetener I was using was more like methadone than heroin.  Not as bad, but... still not good.  Addiction is addiction.  Then again, how many of you think drinking a soda, or two, a day, is okay?  I'm here to tell you, it is not.  I don't care what you have to do, quit it.  Before it destroys your health.

I am fighting like hell, and losing.  We'll see if this fresh, hardcore, cold turkey, approach will work.  Or... help.  Ah, and today is the first day I stop taking supplements... no vitamins, no minerals.  But it means I need to eat each day.  Not a lot, if unable from nausea or disinterest.  But, something each day.  My food is my vitamins and minerals.

I ended up staying up too late yesterday.  Nearly to 18:00.  I could barely walk up the steps.  My coordination was nearly gone, as was energy.  Have you ever seen an old person list, and stumble, as they tried to walk?  I've not had that happen before, ever.  Not sure what the huge problem was.  But it was difficult.

Aches and pains, again, today.  Cold will do that, but as mentioned, I am dressing warmly.  That shouldn't be a problem.  I just don't know what the problem is.  I still have a sneaking suspicion I am being poisoned.  Through my medicine?  As a portion of that?  Or added to what I have?

Politics?  Genetics?  Religion?  Lots of potential reasons.  And, yes, we live in a murderous world.  Of the few things I know without doubt, this I know.  Could be health finally failing, but I don't think that is the problem.  Ugh.  Well... on to the day.